02 May 2017 @ 08:57 am
Ficlet: Hope (Blaise/Pansy, PG)  
Title: Hope
Author: [personal profile] gracerene
Pairing: Blaise/Pansy
Word Count: ~400
Rating: PG
Warnings: pining, unrequited, jealousy
Challenge: [community profile] hp_may_madness 2017 Day 2: Why do I keep hoping you’ll notice me when you always just look right over my shoulder?, kiss, knockout, key, & Food smut
Author's Notes: Unbeta'd. Food smut is blink-and-you-miss-it, but I'm still counting it! LOL

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I whistle appreciatively as Pansy walks down the stairs, a knockout in tight green silk. She grins, flattered by my attention, but I'm not the the one she wants to impress. I ignore the ache in my chest as her eyes eagerly seek out Draco, who's leaning negligently against the wall. He doesn't notice how good she looks, and he certainly doesn't notice the way her face falls at his indifference. Hell, I probably wouldn't notice it either, if I hadn't spent the past several years making a habit of learning every one of Pansy's expressions.

"You look stunning," I murmur as she reaches the bottom step.

"Thank you, Blaise," she says, before kissing me lightly on the cheek. I wonder if she notices the way I shiver, just a little, at her touch.

She pulls back, her eyes warm and soft as she takes me in, and just for a moment, I think maybe, this time, she'll see me. I do look rather dashing in my black tux, after all. Instead, like always, her eyes meet mine for a brief moment before sliding over my shoulder, honing in on whatever space Draco is currently occupying.

Theo's engagement party is in full swing by the time we arrive—we'd never dare to be anything other than fashionably late. Draco snags two glasses of champagne from a passing waiter, before gallantly passing one to Pansy.

"Champagne?"

"You always did know the key to my heart," Pansy says, with far too much sincerity. Draco doesn't notice, but I do. I always do.

Jealousy seethes in my stomach, but I'm familiar enough with it by now to be able to tamp it down. It's not Draco's fault that Pansy's in love with him. It's not his fault that she's not in love with me.

She takes a sip of the bubbling champagne, her lips cradling the delicate glass. I want to taste the bubbles off her skin, suck the sticky, sweet vintage from the hills and valleys of her body.

"Are you all right, Blaise?"

The words are genuine, caring, and it sets my heart racing. She cares for me, I know she does, and no matter how foolish it is, I can't quiet the small voice inside that wonders if maybe that care could one day deepen. I don't know why I keep torturing myself with this wretched hope.

And then I look into her lovely eyes, and I remember.

"Of course, Pansy," I lie "I'm absolutely fine."
 
 
 
 
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capitu[personal profile] capitu on May 2nd, 2017 06:48 pm (UTC)
Oh gosh, that was wonderful, the pining and unconditional love and jealousy, breaks your heart, but I also love the hint of hope. ❤️
gracerene[personal profile] gracerene on May 3rd, 2017 01:52 am (UTC)
Thanks, hon! ♥
alisanne[personal profile] alisanne on May 2nd, 2017 07:21 pm (UTC)
OHHH.
Poignant and lovely.
Poor Blaise. *sniffs*
And of course Draco doesn't notice her. He obsessed with Harry. ;)
Great job, dear!
<3
gracerene[personal profile] gracerene on May 3rd, 2017 01:52 am (UTC)
Haha, I couldn't figure out how to work it in, but Draco is definitely thinking about Harry! ;)
felixfvlicis[personal profile] felixfvlicis on May 2nd, 2017 09:26 pm (UTC)
*falls over*
I can't. This was magical.
gracerene[personal profile] gracerene on May 3rd, 2017 01:51 am (UTC)
Thanks, lovely! <3
fantasyfiend09[personal profile] fantasyfiend09 on May 2nd, 2017 11:20 pm (UTC)
Oh my heart. This is so beautiful and so sad. *sniffs*
gracerene[personal profile] gracerene on May 3rd, 2017 01:51 am (UTC)
Thanks so much!

{{HUGS YOU}}

I missed seeing your name out and about! <3